Thursday, January 21, 2010

A bit of sadness today...

This morning we found out that we have lost our baby. It has been rather shocking as I was almost 16 weeks along and well past the "worry" stage of a miscarriage. But for some reason the little person inside of me passed away a few weeks ago and the placenta and uterus continued to grow. That's why I've had no signs or expectations of a miscarriage. I guess it's pretty rare, but does happen sometimes.

Nothing about the process of motherhood seems to be easy or expected. But I'm grateful still, to be a woman and to have the gift of motherhood bestowed upon me. I'm especially grateful for the little girl that I get to hang out with everyday, and who has continued to make me smile despite the sadness I feel inside. She is my angel.



Thank you to my friend Lisa for watching Reese today and for taking this beautiful picture of my baby girl. And thank you to all my friends and family that have been overwhelmingly loving and supportive today.

I'll be going in tomorrow for a DNC and will be taking a few days off to recover and feel a little better. I hope you all understand.

28 comments:

Mariah said...

Mindi, I am so very sorry to hear this. Miscarriage is such a painful thing. My heart hurts for you. I'll keep you in my prayers!

Barbara Bakes said...

I am so sorry for your loss! I hope all goes well tomorrow.

Unknown said...

You are so brave to share your loss on your blog. My heart goes out to you and your family. 16 weeks is a long time! I hope everyday gets a little better for you.

God Bless,

Chelsey

Shelby said...

Oh Mindi, I am so saddened by your loss. I will be thinking of you and your family.

Carol Egbert said...

I'm sorry for your loss. take care of yourself as you walk the bumpy road of mourning.

Hooper Family said...

Mindi, I'm so sorry for you and your family. I just e-mailed your Mom a couple of days ago to get your blog address, so I've just started following your blog. Good luck today. We will be thinking and praying for you.

Laurel said...

prayers your way.
xoxoxoxo

Brooke said...

So very sorry! Praying for you and your little family!

Merideth Tipps said...

I know you don't know me.. but I love your blog and I just wanted to extend some sympathy.. From a complete stranger, know you're in my thoughts.

Kathy said...

I am so sorry. Such a very very sad thing. My thoughts this morning are with you.

Kathy

J Glazier said...

So sorry for your loss. YOu're in my prayers. Miscarriage is rough to go through. I had the exact same thing happen at 13 weeks and had a DNC.

chingchong7 said...

Mindi! I am sooo sorry for your loss. I just read your blog this morning. You're in my thoughts. Please let me know if I can do anything for you! Anything at all! Take care and hope you feel better soon!

Anonymous said...

As a man I don't know how much pain you are feeling.
As a Dad I can get pretty close.
Sorry for your loss!

Wendy said...

Sweet Mindi! I can only say- been there, done that. It is NOT easy and it brings so many unexpected feelings to the surface. I hope things go better and that you'll be okay. You and your little family are in our thoughts and prayers.
Wendy

JR and Brynn said...

Oh, Mind. I am so sorry. That wound is incredibly deep. I am sure it will take quite a bit of time to heal, but I know it will. I am so sorry for your loss and your pain. We will keep you and Arnold in our thoughts and prayers.

Tukuafu's said...

I am SO sorry. I don't even know you. I find your blog amazing and have loved trying out your recipes. I also went to school with your cousin Pam. Having lost a few babies, I feel your pain. Just know that everything happens for a reason and you will be taken care of! You are a beautiful person. Thank you for sharing Mindika with me!

Frieda Loves Bread said...

I am so sorry for your loss ~ my prayers go out to you and your family. Take care...

Kelly & Tasha said...

Mindi, I'm so sorry to hear that! My thoughts and prayers are with you. That is such a beautiful picture of Reese.

Melanie said...

My heart is very saddened by your news. You are a strong person, evidenced by your lovely blog, and I pray that you get through this experience with peace and hope. Your daughter is just absolutely sweet.

Me and My Clan said...

I am so sorry Mindi! I am so sad to hear of your loss. I would love to bring you a meal one of the days after your DNC. Text me and let me know.

Carolina said...

Mindi,
I am so sorry! I know how excited you were and I can only imagine how hard this must be for you. You will be in my prayers.
Let me know if you need anything.

Gaelen said...

I'm not sure why docs think that explaining the rarity of a difficult thing will make it easier - but you are well, and your family is well, and I hope that you can focus within that. My strongest thoughts for you going forward.

kaylinannette said...

You have a great strength. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

Anonymous said...

I lost a baby at 22 weeks and after the shock the sadness came but then the gratitude that I had that long with him. I hope you recieve peace while you go through all the emotions that will come.

My thoughts will be with you.

Sheridan said...

Mindi, I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking of you.

sandals said...

So sorry, Mindi! I've experienced this pain too. I wish I could take away the hurt. hugs.

Stacy said...

So sorry for you loss, I don't know you and you don't know me, just moved here from ORegon, but I love you recipes as does my family. Sorry to hear your sad news. Know that I am thinking about you during this time

Audrey said...

I'm so sorry Mindi. I guess we never know what God has in store for us. We love you guys and will keep you in our prayers.

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