Monday, June 15, 2009

Monday Moments - Soooo tired....

I am so tired today, I'm having a hard time functioning. Most of my good friends know that I've been having several health problems ever since I had my baby. And today I'm really struggling.

About 8 weeks after little Reese was born I was so happy to be back down to my pre-pregnancy weight. It thought...this is awesome, I'm doing so great. But I guess I forgot to knock on wood or something. Over the next month, while exercising and dieting, I gained 30 pounds. I was also still having night sweats, hot flashes, dizziness, extreme fatigue, insomnia, leg name it, I felt like I was still pregnant. I of course went to the doctor. She told me to give it a couple more months and hang in there. She thought my body was still adjusting from being pregnant.

Well two months later when nothing seemed to be changing, I went back. She ran a whole slew of tests and said that everything came back normal. I got a nice lecture about how things change when you have a baby...your body changes and you're not the same person anymore...isn't that the truth. But my baby is 9 months now and I still don't feel normal. I've still been unable to loose any weight, despite my desperate attempts at dieting and exercising. I actually took a hiatus from both about a month ago, and haven't even noticed a difference. I was just getting so frustrated.

I've had every friend try to give me advice about dieting and exercising, but trust me...I know what I'm doing. About 4 years ago I lost 80 pounds and managed to keep it off for 2 years. I did gain some back after I got married and when I got pregnant and had a miscarriage. But I'm pretty much a resident expert on how to diet and exercise.

Anyway, I'm just so frustrated I can't stand it. I went to see specialist a couple weeks ago, but found out that he doesn't accept my insurance and I can't afford him otherwise. On my "to do" list this week is to find another doctor that does accept my insurance and can help me.

This last weekend I recommitted my self to exercising! I decided that even though it doesn't seem to be working or having any kind of effect...I just feel better mentally knowing that I'm exercising. So I successfully got up this morning and ran 3 miles on the treadmill. Tomorrow will be strength training.

I'm exhausted!


Barbara Bakes said...

I'm so sorry you're struggling. Definitely trust your instincts!

Jen said...

I'm sure the docs checked your thyroid but just wanted to throw that in...mine was way off after I had Sam. I haven't been able to lose any weight since I had Mary five years ago. It's very frustrating. I'm so sorry that you are not feeling well. Hang in there!

Chellese said...

Insurance problems are the bane of my existence. Good that you're recommiting to exercise. I hope something changes for you soon.

Melanie said...

I'm sure you are SICK of advice but my thoughts are along the same lines as your other commenter, Jen. During my last pregnancy and delivery I had severe thyroid problems and had similar symptoms as you. My thyroid levels were never "off" but my doctor found a nodule on my thyroid (just by doing a physical exam) and that was causing the issues.

Good luck. From one mom to another, I hope you get more energy soon. It is so exhausting to be exhausted all the time.

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